work

lookie, little blood cells!

I don't get to look at these that often anymore,

being in the clinic and out of the main clinical laboratory,

but I still work with them....well their cousins anyway.

I'm writing SOP and reviewing current SOP for the clinic and in doing so I get to research current issues that relate & often time get to see pics like these that remind me of my professional roots.

pause

lott'a latte (ya' gotta' scroll for it)

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

todays thought

I, Being Born a Woman and Distressed
by Edna St. Vincent Millay
I, being born a woman, and distressed
By all the needs and notions of my kind,
Am urged by your propinquity to find
Your person fair, and feel a certain zest
To bear your body's weight upon my breast:
So subtly is the fume of life designed,
To clarify the pulse and cloud the mind,
And leave me once again undone, possessed.
Think not for this, however, this poor treason
Of my stout blood against my staggering brain,
I shall remember you with love, or season
My scorn with pity - let me make it plain:
I find this frenzy insufficient reason
For conversation when we meet again.

Friday, September 30, 2005

Waiting to Inhale

rain

the top of moutains

garlic

my husband

wet dog

(yes wet dog....means my furkids have had a bath)

these are a five of my favorite scents

what are yours?

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

blog-o-type

You Are a Double Espresso Hey Energizer Bunny Girl! Do you ever slow down? You're a mix of high energy and ambition, perfectly matched with strong espresso When you want something you get it - by any means possible You're driven, determined, and no nonsense. Which is just how you like your java. What Kind Of Coffee Are You? Take This Quiz :-) these quizzies are quite fun..... for a saturday morning thanks to Jerri http://jerrilance.blogspot.com/

Your Blogging Type is Confident and Insightful

You've got a ton of brain power, and you leverage it into brilliant blog. Both creative and logical, you come up with amazing ideas and insights. A total perfectionist, you find yourself revising and rewriting posts a lot of the time. You blog for yourself - and you don't care how popular (or unpopular) your blog is!

What's Your Blogging Personality?

well interesting.....

monday thought

Do not pray for tasks equal to your powers.
Pray for powers equal to your tasks.
Then the doing of your work shall be no miracle, but you shall be the miracle.Phillips Brooks

and what a glorious thing that would be

creativity

http://www.lassp.cornell.edu/sethna/FrustrationCurvature/

working with a color like orange can be quite a challange

mind you I like oranges, oragne juice, squash, pumpkins, pumkin pie & other things orange

but

to create something with orange is turning out to be a bit harder than I expected

the beads begin to make the shape I want & like the orange carpet,

turn, twist & begin to be their own thing

not a bad thing, bit very much their own

so I put it down for a pause

we need to work together,

the beads & I,

for this to come out the way we both want

often creativity is like that

a process of give & take between the artist & the art

a wee break

sunshine

sunflowers

blue sky

big views

pause

relax

enjoy

change in the air

Change is in the air and I am flying with it.

I am transitioning to a new job within the place I work. The ripples of that transition are just beginning to expand. It has altered the way that my co-workers have to deal with processes at the office.

It isn't easy for some to accept change. For some it takes a long time to get used to even a small change & the major events can really trun life into a tail-spin for them.

"It's not Fair."

"You can't do that to me."

"This time we'll do X-Y-Z."

All said with the gnashing of teeth, the stomping of feet and the requisite glares of anger at being forced to do something; something different, something new, something.

I am sorry for folks that see all change as a punishment to themselves, an upset to their lives, an event of clamity.

Change is a part of this life, a part of living each day on this wonderous plane, a gift from spirit to allow growth.

It is not an event that can be controlled.

It can be an adventure, a chance to shine in the glory of new learning, new doing & new ways of doing things.

But for some it is a death knell to the way they want things done, they way they know to do things and to the way they know.

I prefer to look at things the way Allan Cohen has stated it:

It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure, to embrace the new. But there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful. There is more security in the adventurous and exciting, for in movement there is life, and in change there is power.
Alan Cohen

where I am

Stand in the place where you are
(Now face North)
Stand in the place where you are
(Now face West)
Your feet are going to be on the ground
(Stand in the place where you are)
Your head is there to move you around,
so stand.

~~~~~~~~~~~R.E.M. "Stand"

this song by R.E.M. has been in my head for most of the week.

so often we are not looking at where we are

we look at where we think we should be,

where we think we ought to be,

where we aren't.

I'm looking around at where I am
& I like it.

I have new places to go,
new jobs to tackle,
new goals to achieve,

but where I am ....
right now...

at this moment...

is good.

my head is there to turn me around
should I need it
& this week I did

& went with my head where it looked...
at a better place for me to be.

so here I am.

here I will be.

this is where I stand.

vacations & anniversaries

we get to go play in the mountains for our anniversary this year

19 years with one of the best friends I never thought I'd have.......
my husband

we were married on Labor day because that was a long weekend off work & we could get all of our family together easily for the 'big day'

it is a bit of work to make a good realationship.....both people have to work with each other, for each other & balance that with work for & on themsleves

but when it is good it is SO very good

and this is Good

girlfriends Part I

good friends

girl friends

the very best of life are those 2 things

I am blessed with some of the very most wonderful good girl friends:

Jerri
who is a thoughtful, winsome soul

Bbarb
a generous, glorious person

Carol
one of my oldest & dearest friends

Miki
now passed but her presence is still making an impact on my world

Liz
who is a confident, boisterous woman with a rockin' sense of humor

Annie
one of the sweetiest people I've ever met

Crystal
a joy of a person,
she makes you feel wonderful just being in the same world with her

Sharon L
so confident in herself & where she is in the world
that you have to really notice where you are

Kerri, Ava, DebW, Sharon H, Bevvie, Audrey, Nikia, Dena, Tammy, BethAnne, LeeAnne, Carol (OR), Marcia, Janice, Carol (MO), Annette, Sandy

I don't often enough tell these wonderful people how much they mean to me,

how much it has meant to me to have them in my life,

how thankful I am to have met them
& how rich my life is because of them

may we all be so blessed to have good friends and girl friends

lifelines

"Some one ought to do it, but why should I?"
--
"Some one ought to do it, so why not I?"
Between these two sentences lie whole centuries of moral evolution.
Annie Besant

so I try

I try to do what ought to be done.........

I try to live my life with purpose and clear intent

it is not easy nor is it clear
& yet I keep trying

the work of few is felt by many

we work

we try

we find a way to be heard

I live in a haiku

or so it seems sometimes

as there is only the echo of my work

in the actions of others

namaste

dreams & goals

there are goals at the end of our dreams

they are the reason we get up and move in the morning

those are often little goals

getting out of bed

or

getting thru the day

or

getting to the weekend

no matter how small,

they still count as goals

the dream we have of life lived well make each of those a reality

then there are the BIG goals

career

family

personal value

they also are a part of a life lived well

enjoy this link:

http://www.thedreammovie.com/

it's all about a goal being a dream with a dealine

live well

our patio to be............now is

we'll be working on our patio today

got the rock yesterday

~3000 lbs of flagstone

to cover ~200 square feet

of this

and here it is.....
all done but for the plantings
we are going to put creeping rosemary between the stones
with sage & lavender & bush rosemary on the perimeter
mayne add a potted bit of peppers and tomatoes
(for home-made salsa)

the lizards are out (& the furgirls)
enjoying the new flagstone

what a wonderful idea.................

"Dare to be average!"

I have been a "flybaby" for a while now and it has made a huge difference in my life.

For those who don't know about the Flylady, here is her webbie:

http://www.flylady.net/

the thought that you can dare to be average is an interesting one

you need not be the very best, if you are having fun.

you need not get "A" grades, if you are learing for enrichment.

you need not be the master artist, if you can feel good when you paint.

you need not make a fortune, if you can enjoy what you do at work.

we will not all be the Bill Gates, Mozart, Richard Feynman, Bach, VanGogh, Stephen Hawking, Mick Jagger, or Sean Connery in our chosen profession..........

what ever profession that might be.

but we can enjoy what we do,

how we live,

and who we are

to the fullest possible extent of our being

family

You hear a lot of dialogue on the death of the American family.
Families aren't dying.
They're merging into big conglomerates.

~~~~~~~~~~ Erma Bombeck ~~~~~~~~~~~~

and Erma is right about that,
the merging of families.

Above is just one small section
of the huge conglomerate that is my dad's side of my family.

and there they all are.

Now mind you this is only a portion of my dad's side of my family.

My mom's side is not so numerous,
but has a variety of characters that rivals larger clans.

& then there is my hubby's family
OY VEY!
what a crew they are.

All of my famliy members are wonderful people,
in their own interesting and different ways,
but without variety

how dull would visits be,
how boring conversation,
how dreary our world.

So here's to my vast, glorious, robust & wonderful family!

Love you oodles,
one & all.

pause

When before the beauty of a sunset or a mountain,
you pause and exclaim, "Ah,"
you are participating in divinity.
Joseph Campbell

floors

floors are the foundations of a room

if the floor covering is icky & ugly & old

then the room becomes an uncomfortable place to be

so I'm re-doing the floor in my spare room

the carpet was gastly nasty

tore that all up

sealed the cracks in the concrete floor

&

now I'm re-surfacing it

the concrete color isn't the most consistant

but that's mostly me since I'm just pouring it into the water for the concrete till it looks ok

the new floor is very tactile

which is kind of nice

and the color is working out mostly ok

we'll see in another coupla' sections

if there is a pattern happening or not

I can always paint it after it's all new

kind of a metaphor for ourselves

we can un-cover & then

re-cover

re-surface

re-seal

re-state

re-paint

re-heal

re-lease

& it's always at our foundation where the work starts